its a blaaaah thingy

lalalalallalalaaaa n lalalalaaa,
what do we do when somebody perli-ing2 about us??
do ur poker face!!
yeah, hell i care..hell o go eat jell o..
:)
live soo freely time cuti sem..
n i smell some nasty prob coming towards lahh~~
must be someting, shhuhh2..
dont mess with me..wuhuuuu..

i luv shopping but money does not like me much,
asyik hilang je ( disedekah kt kdai2, isk2 :( )
and now its getting really low...

ps: nvr forget bout nandos, dunt ya worry

step by step, now or never. bye sem 3.

well done ulfa! u manage to finished ur sem without ptee..ouhh seksaaa, xdpt nk rase mcm org lain steady je spend money, huhhhh*tarik muka masam. pdhal duit pama kasi melantak bkn main utk mkn sni sna..hahaaa. well lets hope ptpptn sayang cantik adik manis x kecewa kan daku lg..plss2 msuk lahh time trdekat ni. duh, stop babbling bout money,, hmmm psl ape mau crite ehh..

ooowwwh yea. today last day, end of my third sem. i swear to god, sem ni sgt pening, complex, susahhh, complicated n blaaa blaa.. haih, things byk get overrated, which is x best, sume laaah.. everything, study, life, family, relationship, frienship that shipped away and some other stuff that bother me. in third sem, sesi july-nov2010, are the hardest. man, i thought yg dlu tuh da ssh, rupanya ada lg masalah hidup..muda lg namanya.. ngahaha. well as the sem ended, these are list which hav been coloured my day, colourful, black n white n so forth..theehe

1) study

huhhh, i guess my bad jugalahh yg x study n last min punya pemikiran. then habis exam nyesal n cuak x sudahh.. all subject sudah ku habiskn ngan jayanya, jwb dgn megahnya, cuma x laa confident mana, bole x mcm tuu.. aiyaaa. mmg btul ckp org tu, sy mls, study one day x smpi 15 min da kroooih2, huhhh.. sy tau2, sedar dr, x ya laaa nk hebah org sume pndg sy sbg seorg yg mls... hahhaa.. but point dia sume kena, sooo angguk j laaah.. just hope result pointer x trun.. really wish for miracle to come here.. *wishing

2) family

for *special reason, i've been watched. being a 20th may not be enough for everybody lil girl aren't ya? haha, its maybe sound cool as u've been the most precious but until one time, u will feel the hotness, *some will understand this, hiyeahh, need to make them trust me one more time. it's hard okayyy, but i know the family know the best in me.

3) relationship maybe.

yeahhh, hell i dont believe i'm gonna find me stress bout this matter. well, there's up n down, smooth and cracks, but its normal aite. the really matter is existence whenever i need. its lovely. it feels good. THANK YOU. it started this sem..:)

4) friends and dot..dot..dot

aiyaaa, never underestimate ur feelings, fun become no fun, sweet become no sweet, love become hate and jokes become bullshit. yeah. its getting worse, n i dont see any way out. this sems, i've loss/lost/loose. gotta find a good way to start new sem. goooo chaiyok2. lets forgive n forget. i guess.

5) xxx

byk lagi nk list...tp cm xde idea nk tulis apa, n da bsn rse nk tdo pula.. haihh, nk cr rumaa.. byk nya brg kena kemas.. bye2 homies. bye laksa n mana.. gotta miss uncle ho ho ho.. haha. owhhh ya special thanks to ferrari merah, kalu x i pth kaki. :)

p/s: ‎"Jika tak dapat apa yang kita suka,,belajarlah menyukai apa yg kita dapat…dan bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada..” ya allah, berkatilah insan2 sekeliling ku, maafkan lah khilaf kami, sesungguhnya, kami hamba mu yg hina, smoga masa akan beri kami pengajaran dn belajar dari kesilapan.. maaf maaf. dgn ini, saya tutup tirai sem 3 di uitm city campus, looking forward to sem 4, n moga semua akan menjadi lebih baik, amin. :)

again,

it was me who didn't f*cking even care,

whatever i do,

i am hopeless n useless in ur eye,

sorry to be too hard to handle,

it was me,

i'm sorry.

any famous last word,

which is good bye,

i'm waiting to hear it, as i'm forbid to text or call u anymore.

u want to move on, i'll let you.

LOVE THE FEELINGS, NOT THE WORDS. SIGH,

uhhuh, yes those areee really related,

WORD AND FEELING!!

those happend to me at the same time, day where i wished it to be special and different for me,

is it too hard to make it,

wish no word would came out from u, only the feelings expressed would be nice,

mind with the gift,

after all the good times and bad times, that's the only thing u can think about me??

is that shit? what am i gold digger?

so sad laah,

never thought to make u buy think for me if it weren't sincere from u,

never force u, but u hurt me but say it,

one fine day, where i smile, grinned happily as u wanted to give me the bear,

as i want to say thanks, and i do wanted to show how much i appreciated it,

my smile stopped,the word wont came out from mouth as my heart wont let as it really hurt,

ouchhh, ur word, why have to be harsh and sweet at the same time??

how am goin to swallow both?

maybe its my fault,

a gf supposed not to have feeling like me, i guess,

a gf supposed to accept those harsh word, i guess,

i don't know, i'm speechless syg,

telalu berat nk terima sume tu in one time,

sweet and harsh,

i wished i can choose either one,

but i can't right?

because everything comes with prices...

p/s: the price of love now can be measure by things now eh? maybe laaa, if that way it gonna work, ohh ya, before i forgot, trust urself, maybe its true whatever u said about me. THANK U.

;(

u'll gotta missed the past, when the present is not as beautiful as it is used to be anymore.

the future will stay and wait for us to come n meet,

later on, as u're in the future, u'll find out how dumb u are as not be grateful about thing's happen in present which is now...

when u're not sure what to do in present, remember the past and look what will happen later on future..

ugghh, really miserable now, wonder if u feel this way too..

but it's okay,

i knew the feelings changed, love's fade do ya,

i can say no more,

i'll be fine..

us~~

Romantic Snow Globes by WiddlyTinks.com

perasaan bahagia menagis kerna buku.. ;p

walawehhh..

now dah hr jumaat.. ye maka mulalah aku nk menangis sendirian tersedu sedan kt satu sudut di dlm blik..yeee...slalunya, tyme ni lah aku akn ajk membe2 seperjuangan menangis beramai2..haha. ohh ya. lupa nk gtau, reason sy menagis, motif:sbb da x smpi seminggu (lg 3 days nk final) n saya lgsg x bkk buku! yeap, tipulah if sy kata x bkk bku lgsg, suprisingly ade bkk but, tumpuan max pn pernah smpi 10 minit.. kagum2.. hahahahha..(smbil berlinang air mata)..

tau dah, menangis pn x guna. bak kata pepatah, sesal dahulu mungkin berguna, sesal kemudian baabai la wehh, heheh. nevertheless, i would not blaming anybodyelse, ppl around me skrg byk dorong aku suruh blaja.. yakah?? yaaya, siap kne marah.. adoii, oh ya, should i suppose blame si pembawa demam big bang theory, yaya, maybe i sould, kau lah punya psl si pembawa laptop acer aspire nipis yg ade 2 seasons big bang theory dlm lappy!! huuh! haha, nk juga slhkn org..

teringat pula kisah lame, ,masa dip, aahahaaa, demam gossip girl tgk back2back smpi s3, pastu sem 3 demam big bang n korean show. haisshh, nmpknya berlarutan x berubah2 smpi ke degree. yg berbezanya suasana. yelahhh. dulu ada geng. tgk ini, tgk itu ade org join. sorg x blaja sume x blaja. ade ke patut?? hhuuhu.. bkn aku x suka tgk org blaja n aku x, huaaa, tp takut laaa, dierg da ready n aku tidak.. haiyaaaaaa..nnt aku kne nangis sorg2 menyesal tiada guna. haha, time dip siap buat lagu nangis bersama. sengal. walau tiada lg geng sedorm pergi kemana jua bersama cam dlu, tp now saya ade tiga org slalu bersama saya, ssh sng..TERIMA KASIH.. nnt sy blaja k.. wink2.. rsenye, mereka pn da phm cara aku, bia x study asal tgn mesti ade notes or duk ruma, haha, nk sdp kn aty..

finally, wishing everbody the best of luck. smoga cemerlang bersama2. supaya grad bersama2. semua bersama2. saya suka bersama2. hahaa. nway, hari ni kita da tau, esok kita xtau lg, jgn pndg rendah akn sesuatu, sbb esok lusa hanya DIA yg tentu..

p/s: lets the cry begin, i love buku.. mmmmuuuuaaahh2..