and the winner goes to u~~ego

ya allah..kuatkan laah hambamu ini.. berilah kekuatan kpd ku ya allah..

hmmm, tah knape, rase teharu sgt hati, rse lemah sgt dr.. malam ni mybe mlm last kt rumah ni.. aku pn xtahuu npe keras sgt ht ni.. nk bertegur payah apatah lg maaf.. aku slalu kalah bab kawan, aku slalu minta maaf everytime smting bad happen. sbb aku takut jd mcm ni lahh.. bila semua pn dah xleh tarik blk.. bru nk sedar betapa nilai prsahabatan. tak tahu knape hati ni da terasa sgt, smpi bnci pn mula muncul..act benci tu bole padam mcm tu je, tp ble da lme sgt n xde yg terasa nk padamkn, api benci pn mkin menjadi, smpi nk padam pn sgt lahh payah.

currently i'm typing with tear's hardly streaming down.. sbnrnye sgtlah xnk menangis, sbb nk nmpk kuat dpn sume org, kuat cm aza, but then, mlm ni, lps diorg sume kua, aza lps kms2, die dtg.. tbe2 air mata jatuh, hmm die pn kalah rpenye. she told me how much she worries about her bestfren, after she's not be on her side anymore. ohh my. the sad thing is, when we always think about one another but have to act like we're not, yes, maybe some will make fun of it, but deep inside i know all of us feel the same.

for me, i am not shame being weak bcoz of frenship, crying because the end of a wonderful bond that we all have created. its hard to let go. kadang2, semua sbb ego, and for us, yes, we have let the ego won. congratulation ego's. may you happy and live long. hmmphh. enough of it. nothing else i could do. let's bygone be gone. farewell.

p/s: i really gonna miss u, even if u wont. i really gonna love u, even if u won't. thank you.