LOVE THE FEELINGS, NOT THE WORDS. SIGH,

uhhuh, yes those areee really related,

WORD AND FEELING!!

those happend to me at the same time, day where i wished it to be special and different for me,

is it too hard to make it,

wish no word would came out from u, only the feelings expressed would be nice,

mind with the gift,

after all the good times and bad times, that's the only thing u can think about me??

is that shit? what am i gold digger?

so sad laah,

never thought to make u buy think for me if it weren't sincere from u,

never force u, but u hurt me but say it,

one fine day, where i smile, grinned happily as u wanted to give me the bear,

as i want to say thanks, and i do wanted to show how much i appreciated it,

my smile stopped,the word wont came out from mouth as my heart wont let as it really hurt,

ouchhh, ur word, why have to be harsh and sweet at the same time??

how am goin to swallow both?

maybe its my fault,

a gf supposed not to have feeling like me, i guess,

a gf supposed to accept those harsh word, i guess,

i don't know, i'm speechless syg,

telalu berat nk terima sume tu in one time,

sweet and harsh,

i wished i can choose either one,

but i can't right?

because everything comes with prices...

p/s: the price of love now can be measure by things now eh? maybe laaa, if that way it gonna work, ohh ya, before i forgot, trust urself, maybe its true whatever u said about me. THANK U.

;(

u'll gotta missed the past, when the present is not as beautiful as it is used to be anymore.

the future will stay and wait for us to come n meet,

later on, as u're in the future, u'll find out how dumb u are as not be grateful about thing's happen in present which is now...

when u're not sure what to do in present, remember the past and look what will happen later on future..

ugghh, really miserable now, wonder if u feel this way too..

but it's okay,

i knew the feelings changed, love's fade do ya,

i can say no more,

i'll be fine..

us~~

Romantic Snow Globes by WiddlyTinks.com

perasaan bahagia menagis kerna buku.. ;p

walawehhh..

now dah hr jumaat.. ye maka mulalah aku nk menangis sendirian tersedu sedan kt satu sudut di dlm blik..yeee...slalunya, tyme ni lah aku akn ajk membe2 seperjuangan menangis beramai2..haha. ohh ya. lupa nk gtau, reason sy menagis, motif:sbb da x smpi seminggu (lg 3 days nk final) n saya lgsg x bkk buku! yeap, tipulah if sy kata x bkk bku lgsg, suprisingly ade bkk but, tumpuan max pn pernah smpi 10 minit.. kagum2.. hahahahha..(smbil berlinang air mata)..

tau dah, menangis pn x guna. bak kata pepatah, sesal dahulu mungkin berguna, sesal kemudian baabai la wehh, heheh. nevertheless, i would not blaming anybodyelse, ppl around me skrg byk dorong aku suruh blaja.. yakah?? yaaya, siap kne marah.. adoii, oh ya, should i suppose blame si pembawa demam big bang theory, yaya, maybe i sould, kau lah punya psl si pembawa laptop acer aspire nipis yg ade 2 seasons big bang theory dlm lappy!! huuh! haha, nk juga slhkn org..

teringat pula kisah lame, ,masa dip, aahahaaa, demam gossip girl tgk back2back smpi s3, pastu sem 3 demam big bang n korean show. haisshh, nmpknya berlarutan x berubah2 smpi ke degree. yg berbezanya suasana. yelahhh. dulu ada geng. tgk ini, tgk itu ade org join. sorg x blaja sume x blaja. ade ke patut?? hhuuhu.. bkn aku x suka tgk org blaja n aku x, huaaa, tp takut laaa, dierg da ready n aku tidak.. haiyaaaaaa..nnt aku kne nangis sorg2 menyesal tiada guna. haha, time dip siap buat lagu nangis bersama. sengal. walau tiada lg geng sedorm pergi kemana jua bersama cam dlu, tp now saya ade tiga org slalu bersama saya, ssh sng..TERIMA KASIH.. nnt sy blaja k.. wink2.. rsenye, mereka pn da phm cara aku, bia x study asal tgn mesti ade notes or duk ruma, haha, nk sdp kn aty..

finally, wishing everbody the best of luck. smoga cemerlang bersama2. supaya grad bersama2. semua bersama2. saya suka bersama2. hahaa. nway, hari ni kita da tau, esok kita xtau lg, jgn pndg rendah akn sesuatu, sbb esok lusa hanya DIA yg tentu..

p/s: lets the cry begin, i love buku.. mmmmuuuuaaahh2..

i love u all the way

All this we've been together
Everyday a new adventure
Times, enough to last forever and a day
Our love was sometimes all we had
Through good times and through bad
I loved you all the way

All our days weren't bright and sunny
There are times we have no money
You could always find some funny thing to say
And looking back on where we've been
I'd do it all again
I loved you all the way

I loved you all the way
Every night, every night, every day

Times I thought I couldn't take it
Wond'rin' if we'd ever make it
You could hold me close and make it go away
And though I've said it all before
I never meant it more
I loved you all the way
I loved you all the way..

p/s: this song is for u :) alif min ya nun

i am sorry, to mama with love

huh. hv a fight with ur mother was not a pleasant news to hear.. actually its not a big fight, it just me don't get it sometimes with my mom. well clearly, i regret everything, it's a big mistakes to upset wit ur own mother, bcz sooner or later, u will find out, that u r the one who supposed to blame and ur mother is a greatest gift in ur life. shame on me. forgive me ma. such an unthankful daughter i am.

i love my beautiful mom very2 much!

nothing can compares.. i hope she know what i felt towards her.. had already sent apology text to her.. :( sorry ma..

p/s: the greatest thing that i wanna do in dis life is buy mom luxurious things, take her anywhere she wanted to, pamper her with happiness and all the best thing that could ever happen in dis lil world, but the most precious gift is pray for her happiness for now and hereafter. INSYAALLAH.

and the winner goes to u~~ego

ya allah..kuatkan laah hambamu ini.. berilah kekuatan kpd ku ya allah..

hmmm, tah knape, rase teharu sgt hati, rse lemah sgt dr.. malam ni mybe mlm last kt rumah ni.. aku pn xtahuu npe keras sgt ht ni.. nk bertegur payah apatah lg maaf.. aku slalu kalah bab kawan, aku slalu minta maaf everytime smting bad happen. sbb aku takut jd mcm ni lahh.. bila semua pn dah xleh tarik blk.. bru nk sedar betapa nilai prsahabatan. tak tahu knape hati ni da terasa sgt, smpi bnci pn mula muncul..act benci tu bole padam mcm tu je, tp ble da lme sgt n xde yg terasa nk padamkn, api benci pn mkin menjadi, smpi nk padam pn sgt lahh payah.

currently i'm typing with tear's hardly streaming down.. sbnrnye sgtlah xnk menangis, sbb nk nmpk kuat dpn sume org, kuat cm aza, but then, mlm ni, lps diorg sume kua, aza lps kms2, die dtg.. tbe2 air mata jatuh, hmm die pn kalah rpenye. she told me how much she worries about her bestfren, after she's not be on her side anymore. ohh my. the sad thing is, when we always think about one another but have to act like we're not, yes, maybe some will make fun of it, but deep inside i know all of us feel the same.

for me, i am not shame being weak bcoz of frenship, crying because the end of a wonderful bond that we all have created. its hard to let go. kadang2, semua sbb ego, and for us, yes, we have let the ego won. congratulation ego's. may you happy and live long. hmmphh. enough of it. nothing else i could do. let's bygone be gone. farewell.

p/s: i really gonna miss u, even if u wont. i really gonna love u, even if u won't. thank you.