bila saya sudah tahu dan pasti

yup, maybe its too early to know,
but i am pretty sure what is in my head.
damn it,
why it has to be this way,
u want it then u stay,
eventhough u pretty sure how it gonna be,
u still stay.
stay long until there no more left to say.
when u feel there is no hope and what u have is only faith,
the faith that u hope it become reality.
i am not saying i am perfect,
but i can't lie to myself.
this is not the one,
not the one that i'm gonna to,
rely,
depend,
love,
spoilt,
live with,
happy with,
mad with,
adore,
patience,
weait,
blind too.
miss,
regret,
passionate,
and all the thing in the world that i am gonna give in.
no, it is just no.
i am not gonna be the girl,
accept what is there,
i am still looking,
the dream of my life,
even there is no way i'm gonna meet one,
i just know, it's not you.

The Perfect Girlfriend

What is a perfect girlfriend? They say there is no such thing as perfection, and therefore perfect girlfriend doesn't exist.

She dresses up all cute and pretty every time you take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping you interested and your eyes are locked solely on her. But you stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and all the effort were put to waste. You call her insecure.

She holds on to you like she will never let you go. This is her way of telling other girls that she's lucky to have you, and no, you're not available. You call her clingy.

She calls you with the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only you two will understand. This is her way of saying how special you are, and there is nobody else in this world like you. You call other girls "babe" just as how you would call her, and she gets disappointed. You call her shallow and jealous.

She checks up on you, making sure you made it home safely or that you're not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about you and that she worries constantly because that's how much she cares. You say she's nagging.

She cries when you do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying "That hurt only because YOU said it and I love only YOU". You call her overly sensitive and emotional.

She loves you more than you love her. This is her way of dealing with the fact that your relationship wasn't like how it used to be, but she is willing to make room for more love and some changes. You push her away. You call her dramatic and annoying.

So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, overly sensitive, annoying girl.

She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her.

Now recall, how were you acting again?

p/s: this post been reblog from my Ayesha Syahira. the only reason is, this is exactly how'd i feel now. couldn't agree more. :(

why u have to keep?

its been a long day, doing nothing.. actually, i had plan earlier, it was a not so important plan mybe, and if i were a guy, i'll completely forgot about it, as i dont care at all. nahh~ let's not talk about this pathetically clingy stuff. in fact i looking forward to be just like that 'guy', than we're even.

okay, so i caught nmyself up with how i met your mother marathon.. ohh i love the series. it's an awesome story about this guy named ted telling a never ending stories about how he met his kids mother. the stories for seasons kot..ble tah nk jumpe mak die, x sbr btul.. huuhu. whatever it is, i learn a lot from this hilarious series. make us realized about how life supposed to be, which is, it should be delightful. ted is so lucky to have friends that gonna be with him up and down, sometimes they fought, have different thought or something, but the next morning they're get better then ever. ted searching for a girl that he would spend the rest of his life with, and his been seaching hard. maybe u have to fall in love for hundred times, maybe u'll get hurt million times, but it is worth to finally meet the one for u. to get through the way to get the one, u'll always need ur wingman/woman.

so, i end up having a thought. its okay to felt these way, insecure, unhappy, unpleasant, unappreciated, forgotten, unloved, lonely, jealousy, uncomfortable, invisible, unworth, and all the shit feelings that catch us. because once we pass through it, u'll get the feeling that u bet u wont regret. if not now, then u'll gonna have doubts for the rest of ur life, and it is shameful.

"kami" lah JUARA!

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a little something~

haiihh. nmpk sgt laah outdated habis mak ni hah.. cuti mid sem dah lps baru nk cerita.. haha. tp nk jugak menampal memori ku disini, sbb.. SUKA HATI AKU LAA NI BLOG AKUH.. ok2 dah2, jgn takbur, tuhan marah.

hewhewhew, eeh, cm glak hanis zalikha lah, aaah, mmg pn, haha, now aku mmg suka type hewhew, sbb cm best, lantak laa tiru ke ape.. hewhew dan hew lg. aish, blk kpd tujuan sbnr, nk crito psl cuti midsem plus cny slame sminggu yg baru je abes. aku teringin nk blog sbb td lecture cross culture tetibe ade tnye how's u all nye holiday? n berikut adelah jwpn bdk2 4b : "nahh. x best lgsg", "booooriiinggg", "baik xyah cuti, ade kelas lg best", okay, yg last tuh nmpk sgt dusta semata. cam xpeyaca ade gak ckp cmtu, even aku tau main2 but trgamak jgk ckp cmtu la shey. haha. smpi lect pn geleng xpecaya. huuhuuh.

aku xtau diorg ni btul ke x, but pd aku cuti mid sem ni sgt lah hampeh skali. tp aku ade sbb, sbb cam mustahil tau aku xsuka hari cuti.. huhu. cuti seminggu, so aku da plan mcm2 nk bwat. slh satu big plan ialah g cuti kt mersing with my girlfriends yg aku rindu nk gilaaa.. g situ act kakak shasha kawen, so kami ameklah kesempatan ni brjumpa, bkn sng tau, siap da tmph chalet. aku da siap tggu smpi hr sabtu kt melaka so nnt ayin amek then g ngn die. ape daya...T_T bley lak aku jatuh demam pg sbtu tuh. dah punya xcited, esok pg xlrt nk bgun. uwaaaa. aku da nanes dah..sbb ade ciri xdpt pegi. tp sbb nk syg my gf's aku usaha bgun n try laratkn dr.. how?? aku sggup p klinik ooo amek ubt, kne rm50 ( tu pn lps kne pkse ngn ayh suruh g klinik act) aishh, terase kehilangan btul. so hoping gila demam tu kebah.. tp, mmg Allah x izin, aku still x lrt, so aku pn call ayin n xplain everyting..ayin paham n brlalu pergi.. uuuwaa.. then lastly tgh hr tu balik shah alm.. nsb baik eb shamin ade.. die laa yg bwk kte g klinik n dgn pnuh responsible anta blk shah alam. hew hew. thnx taw2.

there..smpi shah alam rse lega even sgt2 trkilan xdpt pegi mersing (sori k korg). dmm berlarutan smpi ari ahd. start isnin da ok, sihat. tp ku igt pns hgga ke ptg, rupe ujan tgh hr.. shitted. aku saket lg!! hari khamis kalu xsilap. aku diserang dirheoa pula. ohh my. pnt gila kot. igt xnk p klinik, nk brtahan.. tp xlarat laa siot.. rse nk tdo je dlm blk air! sng sket. huh. akhirnye akur gak, g klinik ari jumaat. sbtu aku okay semulaaaa..

now, u see why aku kata cuti aku hr tu x best!! kalu xnmpk lg sokay, mybe xckup truk kot. hmm. actvity yg aku wat mse gap aku x sakit ialah, kembara kpmuter dina ngn pia, nnt nk post psl tuhh.. hhaha. n one more time after hbs skit yut, iaitu jatuh ari sbtu, aku bawa mama ke ikea. dpt mkn meatball nyum2. the end~~

ps: now im strangled banc at melaka. :( yes, satu lg, musibah ni mybe ade kaitan ngn kate2 aku sblum cuti kot. xslp aku ckp kt mr. s, aku ckp aku ni jarang sakit, aku kn kuat, kn ade bau riak si situ.. so amek iktibar ye kwn2. adios